DAY 18.

Today I dyed my hair "Honey Brown" and I'm in love with the results! Now all I need to do is buy and eyebrow pencil so that my eyebrows are the same color as my hair. I also bought a really cute bow ring at Life Plaza today that I'm also in love with. It was originally 2.99 but they had a sale so it was 30% off. Sweet. I'm so happy, hehe.

Today I ate:

Breakfast

1 Sandwich

* 1/2 Tomato

* 1 1/2 Turkey Ham

* 2 Olives

* 1 leaf of Lettuce

Lunch

1/2 Milk tea

1 bowl of Yogurt

Dinner

1 Cucumber

2 Baby Carrots

4 Octopus leg

We also took the dogs on a walk, but this time we brought Jinju, and she LOVED it. It was so cute to see her running and jumping around us as we were walking. It made me so happy to see her happy. I'm so used to seeing her bored in the backyard and hardly ever moving. I'm so glad I decided to take her out this time. The only reason why we never bothered to take her out is because she was afraid of the leash. But we finally realized that she's smart enough to walk without one. Which is more beneficial for us. Bang on the other hand, still needs the leash. He nearly got ran over by a car today if it weren't for me to go get him. Going to be twice as careful than today next time. I'm planning on taking them to Pathfinder park tomorrow. Maybe. We'll see.

108 lbs

DAY 17.

Today I ate:

2 Tablespoon of Apple Cider vinegar

Breakfast

2 Sandwiches

*2 slices of Tomato

*4 slices of Turkey Ham

*1 Tablespoon of Butter

Lunch

1 Banana

Dinner

1 Inn and Out burger

15 French fries

*Ketchup

109 lbs

DAY 16.

Darn, I keep forgetting to take Apple Cider vinegar in the morning-_-. I think it would have helped me lose weight faster. If only there was a way I could remember to drink it everyday...

Today was quite fun. Grace's Sadies plan ended up being a fail. But it was still a good laugh. Went to the yummy Molcha Salsa afterwards! Then Yogurtland.

Later in the day, Angie and Aaron came over. We just chilled and watched TV basically. Oh yeah, and eat. Except for Aaron. Attempted to cut Edwards hair, which was yet another fail today. Something must be wrong with me. Not to mention the "keys" incident earlier in the day, Mleh.

Aaron Chen. You need to eat some more. I felt like I was hugging a pole today, hah.

Today I ate:

Breakfast

2 Choco Pies

Lunch

1 Molcha Salsa

1 bowl Frozen Yogurt

Dinner

1 Strawberry Pocky Sticks

Extra

1 bowl of Applesauce

20 Garlic Crackers

3 tiny Tangerines

At this point, I wonder if hiding it is the best thing to do, or if I should be telling someone. I never expected this to happen to me, and now that it did, I'm not sure what to do... I want to start smoking again. But I gotta fight back and find a different way to relieve my stress. Eating food will not be an option. I've had more than enough of that. I don't want to think about it, but it's always in the back of my head. It'll probably haunt me till the day I die. What to do, what to do.

109 lbs

DAY 15.

Today I ate:

2 Tablespoons of Apple Cider Vinegar

Breakfast

2 1/2 Whole grain pancakes

*Strawberry Jam

*Syrup

3/4 Spicy sausage

1 Egg yolk

1 cup of Pineapple smoothie

Lunch

1 box Strawberry Pocky

Dinner

2 Spicy Chicken

1 Potato

1 bowl of Peas

*Mayonnaise

*Pepper/Salt

Extra

1 Oreo Ice Cream

1 box Strawberry Pocky

Story of today (here).

110 lbs

DAY 14.

Today I ate:

Breakfast

1 bowl of rice with water

6-7 Spicy Korean Radish

Snack

15 Bread cracker

*Ham

*Cheese

*Olive

Lunch

1 bowl of Pho

Dinner

10 Broccoli

1 plate of Spicy Pork

*with noodles

5 Spicy Korean Radish

5 cups of Water

110.5 lbs

DAY 12.

Today I thought I was going to die. After I took my two medication that the St. Judes doctor prescribed me, I started feeling stomach pain right away. Couple minutes later, it hurt to the point where it was difficult for me to breathe and I couldn't move. I called my mom in my weak and humble voice for help. She immediately screamed at me, and I had no idea why. I couldn't reply so I just stayed in the same position trying to fight back the pain. But it was taking over me. I could've sworn I was going to faint. Everything was so blurry and I almost felt as if I was in another world. I could feel that my face was cold without touching it with my bare hands, and my music that was currently playing at the moment sounded as if it was miles away. My mom rushes upstairs asking what was wrong and then things became a blur. Next thing I know, my mom was massaging my stomach and covered it with a heat pack. My senses started coming back and I could feel, hear, and speak properly. After I was able to talk, I asked my mom why she screamed at me when I was hurting. And she laughed and said she thought that I was itching my eczema again and thought I was bleeding. Haha, we ended up laughing about it. I took a long nap and felt perfectly fine afterwards. Thank goodness. I'm not sure what the main cause of it was but I'm pretty sure it's one of the medicine he prescribed me. I'm going to be extra careful now.

Today I ate:

Breakfast

1/2 Empinada

1 cup of Water

Lunch

1 plate of Salad

*Olives

*Marinated mushroom

1 bowl of Vegetable soup

*Broccoli

*Carrot

Dinner

20 bread cracker

*Ham

*Cheese

110.5 lbs

DAY 11.

Last night was horrible. This is the worst pain I've ever gotten from eczema. I just got myself to wake up (6:05p.m.) and my stomach is screaming for food. Therefore, I should go eat.

Today I ate:

Lunch

1 bowl of Korean Kimchi fried rice

*2 Egg yolks

Snack

5 Raspberry Vanilla Cookie

Dinner

1/2 Chicken Enchilada

3 cups of Water

4 cups of Green tea

110.5 lbs

DAY 10.

Today I ate:

Lunch

Garlic and Basil noodles

*5 Garlic marinated mushrooms

*1 Tbsp Olive Oil

*2 Tbsp of Garlic Powder

Dinner

20 Crackers with Ham and Cheese

Extra

2 cups of Applesauce

I am in extreme pain at the moment. My eczema is at the worst its ever been. I want to go to the ER, but my mom says we can't because our Medical is expired. Fuck me. I want to cry. I already did earlier.. I just wish I never had this all. I feel so depressed and it's stressing me out so much. Ugh, I just hate it. I just want to go to the Hospital so they could give me some sort of treatment. And so I could get better somehow. I have school on Monday and I can't imagine going to school like this.

I feel so sick. In a different way.

Ugh.

110 lbs

DAY 9.

Today I ate:

Brunch - 3:25p.m.

1/2 Peanut butter and Jelly sandwich

2 cups of Water

Lunch

1/2 Pizza bread

1/4 Sweet bread

Dinner

1 1/2 bowl of Curry rice

Extra

1/2 bag of Hot Cheetos fries *guilt*

3/4 Sweet bread

3/4 cup of Applesauce

1/2 Peanut butter and Jelly Sandwich

I'm going to start from tomorrow! I clearly failed today, haha. Tomorrow, I'm going to go search for that 8oz. water bottle and I'm going to start cooking my own meals.

110.5 lbs

DAY 8.

Today I ate:

Brunch

1 Grilled ham and cheese sandwich

Snack

1/2 bag of Hot Cheetos Lime

1 bag of Cheesy Chex Mix

Dinner

2 Fried fish

10 slices of meat

*with spicy salt sauce

1/4 cup of Soup

2 cups of Water

Extra

15 Strawberry Pocky box

3/4 Biscuit

6 Potato Wedges

1/4 Pizza bread

2 cups of Water

My calves are so sore! It hurts to walk. I just came back from our daily 30 minute walk, but we stayed out a couple minutes extra. It was funny because we 3-way called Grace's friend saying that I was a girl named Jessica from RHS. Which was totally made up. And he believed us, when we were right next to each other the whole time, haha! The lame things we do!

Tomorrow I'm planning to buy a 8oz. reusable water bottle so I can get my daily intake of water! I need to control myself better when it comes to how much I eat. My first two days were successful. But after that I just lost control again. Time to get back in track. No more junk food, no more candy. In fact, I'm going to give all my candy away right now before I start craving it again. I ate like 6 in a row at school today. Definitely not good.

I decided not to push myself too hard, without knowing if I could accomplish it or not. So I'm going to start off with eating small meals, and taking a 30 minute walk everyday. Once that becomes a daily routine, I'm going to start adding other workouts to my routine.

I also realized how It's harder for me to control myself eating when I don't cook. So I'm going to start eating separately from my family, and start cooking my own healthy meals. As much as my mom's food is delicious, it is incredibly salty and unhealthy.

Tomorrow is a fresh new start! Let's see how it goes!

113.5 lbs

DAY 7.

Today I ate:

Lunch

1 Grilled cheese sandwich - 4:30p.m.

*2 pieces of ham

1 cup of Water

Dinner

6-7 slices of Fried Sweet potatoes and Squash - 7:15p.m.

4-5 sticks of Cucumber

*with spicy sauce

3-4 pieces of meat

2 cups of Water

Extra

1 Banana

1 slice of Fried squash

10 Strawberry Pocky sticks

2 Chocolate crackers

Today, me and Grace went on a 30 minute walk with Bang (dog) at 6:10p.m. Which in my opinion, is the perfect time to walk. It was more tiring than I thought it'd be, but I loved it. We cooled off outside for a couple minutes and went in to eat dinner. School is starting in a couple days and I'm really messing up my diet. I need to get it all together.

Just came back from biking with Grace. We decided to bike a little everyday, whether we jog or walk. I'm also thinking about waking up at 5a.m. with Grace to go on a 30 minute walk early in the morning. I personally think it's a great idea, because we can start off the day feeling fresh and energized. And It's also better for her since I can make her breakfast, heh.

Sleeping early and waking up will probably be the hardest part for the both of us. Mleh, we can at least try our best!

113.5 lbs.

DAY 6.

Found this picture from our Trip to Vegas a couple weeks ago.

Anyways,

Today I ate:

Brunch

1/2 Peanut butter and Jelly Sandwich 1:40p.m.

2 Chicken nuggets

*Barbecue Sauce

Lunch

1 Peanut butter and Jelly Sandwich 2:15p.m.

1 cup of Water

Dinner

2 Chicken legs

1 Chicken thigh

6-7 Potato wedges

2 1/2 cups of Mashed potatoes

*Gravy

2 Spicy rice cake

2 Spicy sausages

2 cups of water

Extra

1 cup of Applesauce

Wow, I am in so much pain once again. My eczema decided to come back, twice as painful than before. Tomorrow I am going to call the USC Hospital first thing in the morning to schedule an earlier appointment, because I can't wait till March. I have so many things to take care of right now:

-Hospital appointment

-Mt. Sac Orientation

-Orthodontist appointment (Fix my retainers)

-Dentist appointment (Find out about my Jaw)

-Red ticket fee/Court

-Etc.

School is starting in a couple days and things are getting out of hand! I need to stop being lazy, and start taking care of things. I'm going to try doing better starting from tomorrow.

113.5 lbs

DAY 5.

Today was a pretty fun day. Kelly came over in the morning, so we started off with a little breakfast, and went off to go bike riding. We ended up going to Fajardo Park, and just stayed there for a while because it was too hot to bike back. We chilled there for a couple hours, and took many pictures. Then, at 11a.m. Janice picked us up and we came home to dye our hair. The color didn't come out as expected. But I was fairly okay with it, because it evened my hair color out a bit. Kelly wasn't satisfied on the other hand. Later, we made lunch together, took some more pictures on my webcam, and she left at 3p.m.

Rest of the pictures are (here).

Today I ate:

Breakfast

1/2 Whole wheat sandwich

Brunch/Lunch

2 Whole grain pancake

*with Strawberry Jelly

*Maple Syrup

1 portion of Rice Omelet

*Ketchup

2-3 portions of Rice Krispies

4 cups of Water

Dinner

2 pieces of Spicy meat

1 cup of peas

*Mayo

1/2 cup of Rice

Overeating

1 Whole wheat bread

1/2 Peanut butter and Jelly Sandwhich

1 1/2 cups of AppleSauces

Tonight, we went on a quick exercise with all my siblings. We were all on wheels. I was dying in my rollerblades, my feet hurt so much. Edward ended up getting a muscle spasm, Janice's bike chain fell off, and Grace's scooter wheel broke in half. What a major fail. But it was still fun. Finished off the night by watching Keeping up with the Kardashians.

Earlier in the day, I noticed that I'm only maintaining my current weight. (11.5 llbs). I'm not necessarily losing anything. Which isn't good. At all. I also noticed that biking isn't going to do much for me at the moment, so I'm going to have to start jogging again. Instead of taking the easy way out. Things would be a lot more simple if I had a 24 pass. Maybe later, I hope? For now, I'll do it this way.

Tomorrow, I'm hoping to wake up early. Make Grace some breakfast and go on a 20 minute jog around the neighborhood.

I also need to get the habit of taking 2 tablespoons of Apple Cider Vinegar every morning, along with a cup of water. I think that can make a bit of difference. But it's always so hard to remember. It always hits me, after I finish my breakfast-_-, Mleh. Time to end the night with a little workout.

111.5 lbs.

DAY 4.

Came home at around 1a.m. last night, so I just barely woke up an hour ago.

As we all know, today is Valentine's Day. Although I thought it wasn't going to affect me, it kind of did, because all my sisters are going out with a man except for me.

It suddenly reminds me of him.. Of all the memories that we once used to share.

It gave me the chills, just thinking about the past. From Korean class, to the day he gave me the ring, to Sadies, to the day he asked me out, to track practices, to Vantage Point, all the food we ate, and movies we watched, etc. Because I swear to you, during all those good times, I never imagined once that things would end up to be this way.

Once lovers, now strangers. You never know what could happen next. I like to think that this all happened for a reason but I'm honestly not buying it.

Even though I am thinking of him today, I bet it's some other girl on his mind. And that's okay. I'll stay strong, and someday, I'll get what I deserve.

Anyways,

Today I ate:

Brunch

1/2 Whole wheat bread sandwich

Lunch

3 mini pancakes

1 mini pancake

Dinner

1 Whole wheat bread sandwich

3-4 cups of Water

I feel like I overate. I think I shouldn't have ate that last sandwich. Time to exercise a little. Goodbye.

111.5 llbs.

DAY 3.

Today I ate:

Breakfast

1 egg yolk (boiled) - 9:55a.m.

2 pieces of spicy rice cake

1 cup water

Snack

3 pieces of Candy :-(

Lunch

3 small Whole Grain pancakes - 1:40p.m.

*with Maple Syrup

*Strawberry Jam

1 cup of water

Dinner

4 plates of food-_-

*Meat, Potato salad, Salad, Sweet potato, etc.

2 Croissants

2 Chicken drums

Excessive amount of candy

I completely overate today. I have to learn how to control myself when I come to events. I feel disgusting. Time for a workout session! I hope I never do that again-_-!

113.5 lbs

DAY 2.

Woke up a little past 9a.m. I wasn't feeling that hungry, so I managed to eat a small breakfast.

Just came back from Costco! I'm really excited to start on my healthy diet. So far, I'm doing a good job at eating in small portions. Keep this up, and I'll have a faster metabolism and lose weight in no time! Or at least I hope.

Today I ate:

Breakfast

4 slices of Korean pear - 9:15a.m.

Brunch

3 Chicken nuggets - 11:30a.m.

*with Barbecue sauce

1 Chocolate chip cookie

1 cup of Soy milk

Lunch

1/2 Whole wheat bread Sandwhich - 4:15p.m.

*1 1/2 sliced Tomato

*1 American cheese

*1 1/2 lettuce

*1 1/2 turkey ham

*2 grated Baby Carrots

*Mayo spread

2 cups of water - 7:00p.m.

Dinner

3 fried Tofu - 7:20p.m.

5 small lettuce wraps

*1 piece of Spicy pork

*1 cooked garlic

2 slices of Sweet potato

3 cups of water

Dessert

1 1/2 Chocolate chip cookie

1 cup of water

Overeating

1/2 a slice of Tofu

3-4 pieces of Kimchi

17 minutes bike riding and a couple of workouts. Not that bad. However, I feel guilty about over eating again. But It's only the beginning so I can't expect it to be perfect the first time. Tomorrow we are visiting my Grandparents and going out to eat. There comes the hard part. I'm hoping for some changes in my weight by the end of this month? We'll see.

School is starting next week on the 22nd. Yikes! I don't know if I should be worried, excited, or glad. I hope Mt.Sac isn't as bad as I hear it is. I might just end up going to JC Fullerton next semester. Not sure yet. Time to work out and go to sleep now. Goodbye!

110.5 lbs

DAY 1.

I woke up late, even though I slept fairly early last night. I fell asleep roughly around 12-1a.m. and woke up at 4p.m. But I have a good excuse! I am sick. And I've been sick. It got worse last night and I woke up sounding like a man. Yes, I lost my voice-_-. And because I woke up late, I didn't eat a lot. Thank goodness!

Today I ate:

1 5 foot long Subway sandwich

1 Sweet potato

3-4 Sugared cookies

1 1/2 cup of Soy milk

3-4 cups of Water

1 cup of Green Tea

I feel guilty about eating those sugared cookies today but I just could not get myself to stop! I need to learn how to control myself. So, I just decided that I'm going to try my best to list down what I consume everyday. And I'll try to write the time of it too. Starting from tomorrow, of course. I'll be making many changes throughout my diet, and hopefully I'll be able to obtain my goal someday.

But I can see that that day is a long time away. But that's okay! As long as it happens someday.

Right now, I am on Glamour.com looking at some helpful tips! I can stay up all night searching for some good ideas. And, well, I did.

A couple recipes I must try:

Arugula white-bean dip with Pita bread or Whole wheat crackers.

Caprese English muffins

Tomato and Parmesan melt

Eating plain baby Spinach

Spinach Pizza

A different way to cook Asparagus (I definitely plan on trying this out.)

Zucchini Muffins

Banana bread (Maybe substitute the flour with Whole wheat four?)

Banana Pancakes

Apple Sandwich with honey

SunButter (I must buy this someday!)

Shredded carrot Sandwich.

Breakfast Burrito

Grapefruit

And a bunch of other healthy recipes here.

Breaking the bad habits, and changing them for good:

Breakfast within 30 minutes of waking up.

Dinner before the sun sets.

Zen Eating: Taking deep breaths between each bite.

Use small plates and Walk/Run 30 minutes every day.

Bento Boxes

It's almost 5a.m., I think It's about time I sleep. Oh, and I won't be doing this everyday. Especially because it takes too much time. I think I'll search for some more once I accomplish most of the things on this list. Time to do some grocery shopping later today! Hopefully, haha.

Goodnight!

Or Goodmorning. Whichever you prefer.

GOAL.

• Wake up at 7a.m.
• Take 2 tbsp Apple Cider Vinegar.
• Exercise twice a day - Morning/Night.
• Drink 6 cups of water per day.
• Eat healthy meals.
• Eat fruits/vegetables.
• Body workout.
• Sleep before 11p.m.

To be continued...